Heath problems

I have some serious health problems going on, They are running so many tests, right now they think I have lupus and a bunch of other things. I have to run all over the place and get some more tests done. I have been dealing with some other shit and all the stress from where I live and such are making my pain worse. I talked with my mom about me moving in with one of my friends, I have been losing a ton of weight, I went from 326 this time last year to 239, and the thing is that I am not even trying. It just sucks being in pain all the time and not having any relief.


this is cute

A Dog’s Purpose ? (from a 6-year-old).

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year-old Irish Wolfhound named Belker. The dog’s owners, Ron, his wife Lisa, and their little boy Shane, were all very attached to Belker, and they were hoping for a miracle.

I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family we couldn’t do anything for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home.

As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would be good for six-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker ‘s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away.

The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion. We sat together for a while after Belker’s Death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives.

Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, ”I know why.”

Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I’d never heard a more comforting explanation. It has changed the way I try and live.

He said,”People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life — like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?” The Six-year-old continued,

”Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”

Live simply.

Love generously.

Care deeply.

Speak kindly.

Remember, if a dog was the teacher you would learn things like:

When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.

Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride.

Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure Ecstasy.

Take naps.

Stretch before rising.

Run, romp, and play daily.

Thrive on attention and let people touch you.

Avoid biting when a simple growl will do.

On warm days, stop to lie on your back on the grass.

On hot days, drink lots of water and lie under a shady tree.

When you’re happy, dance around and wag your entire body.

Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.

Be loyal.

Never pretend to be something you’re not.

If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.

When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by, and nuzzle them gently.


That’s my answer for Tuesday November 29th, 2011

Have you ever broken a bone? No


The Queen’s Meme #104 ~ The Birthday Meme

, 1. If you could turn back the hands of time, where would you go? I would go back to when I was 19, I would have never started dating Roberto

2. What was your favorite age and why? 16, it was a good year for me

3. Travel into the future 10 years. How do you picture your life? I’d be 38, hopefully I have a house, a job, some kids and I’m married.

4. Did you ever take part in a birthday surprise? Tell us about it. Yeah for my dad’s 30th birthday

5. Pretend it is your ultimate birthday party. What five people, living or dead, would you invite? My mom, My dad, My step dad, My brother, My son

6. Let’s have cake! Forget about candles and flavors and balloons.
Who jumps out? a stripper

7. And finally, make a wish but not just any ole’ wish. Make it count. okay but I can’t tell you it.


I need some members

I opened a forum and need members, so please Raspberry Tea Join, women only.

Going to eat more turkey

Going to my moms for thanksgiving, bringing my computer.

Presents and Other things

What do I get for a 3 year old boy who loves spiderman but I don’t have a lot of money? hmm.

No Cornbread?

Okay so when I found out what day we were doing Thanksgiving with my family, I personally requested Corn Bread because damn it, I want it. So I call mom today to find out, we will not be having Corn bread. I said do I need to write a formal request for stuff, wtf.

I don’t feel good

I am home, I didn’t wind up going to the falls tonight because I don’t feel well so we are going another day. We went to see Jen’s mom and then we went to the res, now I am here. Tomorrow I am going to see my family. Oh and I have to charge the digtial camera battery tonight.

Off I go

I am going out with Jay and Jen (from the house), We are going to Jen’s moms house, The res and to the falls so I can take pictures and I will post them when I get back.